Friday, July 29
3:41 PM
Feet are bouncing -
Fingers tapping -
Lips are smiling -
Body swaying -
The mind is singing -
My soul is dancing -
Go figure..
Thursday, July 28
2:05 PM
elo again. Hmm. okay, in school now.. doing project.. making progress.. yes. of Course. haHA! got make up lesson for mr wee. So basically stayed on to do proect. Just saw my horoscope.. guess what it says.. Quickie:Try your hardest not to get into a tiff with somebody who is itching for one. haHA!. hey wat can i say, the stars know me, i know the stars. hoHoo.. reminds me of nursery rhymes.. nvm. on to serious stuff. Recently, there had been lots of talk on blogging, blogers and blogs. This ties in well , mainly because of the bloggers convention. Kinad sounds nerdy, yes. But however it is bringing out the shakespeare and J.K.Rowlings in all of us. Although technically, if they saw the kind of language we'r using, they will probably turn in their graves. haHA! (oops. sorry, not rowling though.) Anyway, this reporter was saying how she felt bloggers were informing others about their lives quite informally ( via a terminal rather then face-to-face). As true as it may sound, there are still many who prefer proper communication compared to just such information. Personally, this is just a tool; a way to keep up with language, to write. its not nice to keep venting it out on people. So this is a good way to keep urself sane, as well as normal (even a saint could flare up at times). Besides that she also mentioned how blogs may be losing their initial 'glamour'. I say Not! cuz people are signing up, logging in, blogging their hearts out ( and many also enjoy beautifying their blogs [the same way i gave mine the dark approach.] ) This really helps in creating designers/copiers out of many. Those who can create, will do so, n there are those who will simply get some eye-popping designs off the net, like me. it defines a person's individuality. People may rant, may sob, may sell things in their blogs as well ( some as we know just love displaying even themselves.. ho hoo). Some talk about politics, food and shoes even. They are practically as good as personal websites ' plus, they are free'. All this talk is making my mouth go dry.. kudos to her for inspiring this post out of me. N i'm off. Smile!
Tuesday, July 26
11:29 PM
elo elo! haHA.. sadly, the prev tag-board had to go..buhBye tag-board. it made the page super long to load.. so now. there's all new, all fresh ShoutBox.. its pretty good as well. Yeap. i have to thank this khairul anwar guy for creating sumthing simple and nice, plus its a singe to edit. Thank goodness for all those css and xml/xhtml classes. Yep. Then, well.. im enjoying this.. possibly if i can add more i will.. still figuring out sum parts of it though.. Heee.. anyways.. been going into project research modes so if im nt doing the project, im still studying up on some parts of it. Going good. say Cheese!
Monday, July 25
10:24 PM
hi hi! im still in the process of editing this layout.. gt comments.. or how to enhance or watever.. would be useful. .thx!
Sunday, July 24
8:54 PM
wow. wonderful.. haHA! i absolutely loved the start of the hols, tdy is just as grt. Quiet days, where your no longer surrounded by school, projects, friends.. nobnody but me, myself , n of course, my family.. at home. been going back pretty late lately, usually reach home arnd 11+, so its nice to juz sit back n relax for a while. Continued on the book on psychology, learnt more. I've identified my purpose for knowing psychology, n what's going to be necessary for me to read up on. Which lead me to some questions from today's paper. Apparently tom cruise, john travolta n other famous names are into this new religion called scientology, and tom cruise especially loathes psychiatrists ( not psychologists, but psychiatrists ). Sumhow this had been accepted as a form of religion quite some time ago along with all the kaballah theories that madonna had raved about.The interesting thing is that they dont believe in medical 'drugs' or something along the lines.
Next up: there's a movie called Mysterious Skin coming on. I dunno, but i read the reviews and the article about the interview with the movie's director (i think). It's kind of disturbing, since its about two 8 year old children who got;(to put it nicely ) 'touched' n grew up without realising wat had happened till much later. N when they did grow up, they were 'emotionally damaged'. Tdy i saw the picture of one of the boys, his eyes brought across nothing else other then unadulterated innocence. This is abit affecting, its not a nice thought.
I realised i had used way too many la's n ah's in the prev post. What got in to me?? haHA! ugh, not me at all .. nvm, then well i did read the 'very friendly' post agn. N yes, this time i was grinning frm ear to ear. haHA! wen u sit down n really think about it, everything just seems that way doesn't it . Then basically the rest of the day, my sis was on the com the whole time, so i couldnt continue wif my reports, but i gt good sources, so i just understood the xhtml n css basics n got down a few pointers to ease things out for me. n i think i saw bavani in Sangeshtraz. but either ways, vasantham star was jolly good fun. It started out with enough razmatazz with the remo song 'that is one good song', n the singers were great competition. After the third singer i realised that this is going to be a mainly guy's competition ( like the all girls three finalists in AMI 3). n the best part of it all. How they made suppamma n shaila talk to each other. ( after that not very flattering comment, it was kind of funny to see how both of them handled the situation.) Arite, that wraps up my day. Slow, n smooth. I was basically dancing around alot also, ever since friday. I think im getting myself back in good order.
Kavi in poly is alot more, well.. he thinks alot before saying out his words. The kavi in sec sch was alot more well timed. I've become quieter here, not like in sec sch, wer im alwys talking in class. BUt now.. well, sociable to a better extent, talking more, slapstick remarks are back , plus i realise, im smiling n laughing alot more. I like that. I have to say some of the guys at the club were grt reasons for this. Thank you. i understand that i had been finding myself thoroughout the whole time during tertiary life, n i think im beginning to truly know myself. But for others to know me, well thats still as hard as it will ever be. Cuz i never display my true emotions openly, good ones yes, but not bad ones. N there's alot running in my mind all the time. I took so long to get to know myself, its gonna take real hardcore people to get answers beyond the skin. Yes yes, dark skin n all.. haha.
Saturday, July 23
2:59 PM
haHA! kk, the title of the book was originally the lion the witch n the wardrobe, but nidta said it wrongly n however i think that title is loads funnier. Basically nidta n CG , as they call her had come down for a visit. LOL. it was gd fun also, everybody just got really crazy, the place was just practically echoing with laughter n stuff( i think i actually split my sides.. hehe) then there was crapping (lots of it ), laughing also lots of it, ping pong, again. everybody were playing n stuff, haHA! sum were practically all over the floor! then played bangla, which i realised another day was played very wrongly by the 3 of us, hahA! but i must admit it was great fun playing. everybody was freaking laughing all the way! then kuruvamma was the only one seriously taking so much time counting the numbers.. haiyo.. counting the planetary alignment thing i suppose. the, plans have been made for another day of bangla.
Then comes thurs. nvr really liked thurs lab cuz gt networking and IT3822 where the labs are very hard to do.. ( so sad).. haha sso it wasnt actually going so smoothly la, then came the news.. on racial harmony day sum more. fooo.. wonderful la just wonderful. it came from sumone, othr wise i wouldnt have known it la, then there was the 3822 lab, which i couldnt do, ecxcept at the end i managed to complete the first lab. yAY! that eased it a little bit la. then off to meet the rest, hmm already vibes nt very gd. But shane n ganesh's son were there as well, but even that didnt help so much la, i was on to super sarcastic mode.. sumthing which nobody has seen in poly except for these guys on thurs. Mithya described it as 'satan sitting on my head' haHA! very nice description, buti knw i was being super fast at retorting.. bad mood la.. sorry.. hehe, oh n ganesh's son looked very familiar. then ya.. pretty quiet day, with satan sitting on my head.. haha. macam tennis racket ah.. everything comes my way, it goes back many times as hard. n shane could actually wash his hands in the fish pond.. haiyo..
and fri marks the end of the week , start of the two weeks holiday, which will be used to end all projects. went thru yr 2 networking with malar, couldn't nt help ah, aredi said i would, 3825 lecturer said everybody in the class the proposal was c or d grade except for sk's. Ya, but i was in a surprisingly good mood after wat had got into me the day before, cam to sch as fast as i could cuz jie was all alone she said. saw noraini n mahazie also. then hmm, ya i was telling malar the whole thing la,, it was like the full version of the news on thurs. they were laughing cuz the way i was saying was very expressive n all. haHA! then we were just discussing it a while.
which has led us to this conclusion: u gt problems with us, come out n talk. u'll probably say there's no problem, but knowing u, probably just keep doing things to spite us. What you posted was so silly . I had a good laugh. Have a nice day.on the way back on fri, the moon was really close n bright, Its been sum itme since it was upclose n more beautiful. mit n malar are camping out, have fun pple! happiness is about fulfillment with ones self.
Tuesday, July 19
8:37 PM
haHA! could some kind soul tell me wats going on. Stories from north ,south ,east and west. The worst part is none of them match in the slightest detail. Maybe its just a case of get them all tgthr, or maybe its a case of mind freaking manipulation, knowing what goes where and how its supposed to go. Well, whichever it is, its just a big waste of time . on to better topics: me !haHA! yaa.. tdy sch agn.. really glad to c denise agn.. nvr see her for like dunno how long le, it was nice to hear the ever familiar "KaVi ! ".. yup. she's a gd girl.. hai.. then then then, gt this tekong thing that i shan't say too much abt, BUT, jie, shar n the rest hv decided to go also, n denise also! hopefully all of us can get through, only 20 pple max it seems. but sumhow, i dun think that will be a problem thanks to jie's ingenius plan. haHA! e2 is having their comm skills presentation, score well k ! im pretty confident that they will do well cuz they gt experience, n the qns they set are higher up the scale. i saw those qns. my gdness, i f i gt to answer such things, i wld prob freak out. Anyway, then was on the phoen wif mithya just now, then her brother was all, " put down the phone" n stuff,... parvati???.. mi gdness .. hm hmm hmmm, oh yes n i still nd to do my ruthrathandavanm thing. its a must.. ;)a narrow road, like a narrow mind, is quite useless.
Saturday, July 16
11:43 AM
ok, lets backtrack abit here.. Wednesday : had to go through mock interview, so must dress formally.. it went fairly well, except i was having too many facial expressions ( as said by mdm oh), sumhow it comes in conjunction with wat sabrina said last thurs during fencing ( that i was very animated n my face moved alot ) .. these are words that have been said in sec school as well, however i realised.. in poly i've been quite diff from then, so i guess the wit n sharpness is kicking in back agn.. n well pple like it that way. Anyway, after that mi grp had to interview the other grp. Oh crap, only james, linda n me left cuz tim n joanne had to go off le. It was hard but i think we did fairly tekan one of them at least.. i shan't say who though. LOL! hmm then met shahana, went to the crepe thing. Which was quite a success if i might say so, i mean, most of them made their food and left, but some others stayed out till the end, so i guess that still is a measure of success. ' Though we didnt get our chance, i guess its just another day.' besides that there was nurul, this girl who did funny things with her tongue, elbow n knee joints, who does a gd impression of chandramukhi. N her friends, one of whom calls me tamizhan. ha HA very funny. but wats better was the aadu. She can actually tell me, esp wen sabrina herself was a scorpio, that scorpios were full of ego n stuff like that. Sigh, but wat do goats knw rite. she's just a goat with long horns, haHA! so i juz agreed with her, but not until i called her the aadu that she is ..:p then there was nuh's fiend,. nice girl. ya shane came along as well..wonder wer nuh was though.. the fellar said he had a dental appoinment, sumhow, he alwys has things going on wen we are having things going on as well.. sumthing's very fishy.. hm hmm hmm. Thurs: ok. highlight was well..i did the lab, but i had errors, n i couldn't fix them which made me wanna beat sumbody up.. very hard.. n very lost in lab. then went ot club room, mit,aishah,shane n shah were there.. busy crapping n playing uno agn.. it was tag team sorta thing wer mit n i wer against shane n shah.. n aishah was like.. 'no i dun wanna play cuz i suck at it' that sort of thing.. lol.. then ya went to watch them fencers agn, didier was there.. surprisingly, telling me to eat more cuz people at the committee were saying (hmmm ....? )that i was getting very thin.. which i realise too, but haiz.. i dunno wats the reason. Then laughed out loud at aadu again, cuz of wat mit did, then went back agn, n everybody was in a bad/odd mood wen i was trying to be in a gd mood agn. so eventually it gt really weird, after a game of snap n bluff, n gin/rummy wat evr u call it. it was back home agn.fri: well one of the good days as well, came to sch pretty fucked up, but the substitute networking teacher was a lot better cuz he backtracked evry nw n then so we learnt the whole concept which i understood! i mean me n networking! WooO.! during ang beng hoe's lesson i felt better, cuz i was busy doing his assignment wen i was supposed to hand in so well, the fact that i understood the programmes n tried writing it out miself in my own way did help loads. felt better. Then went to club room, finished up my assignment ( proud of it.. yes ) while listening to songs which kept telling me to have a nice day. n i was! then malar n shane came, i cleaned up the place b4 that. n shane was being the tong man. him n his kanji nonsense.. bleaH ! then ya after a while they left to eat, shah came n then left. malar came back n then i was bored so we played ping pong. in the clubroom, the tables were useless so we cleared the area, n played very bad ping pong, but it made us laugh so much that evrything bad just went flying out the window. shah came in agn.. then we settled for uno, n bluff n snap. intrsting hw just playing can release loads of stress. Then malar went for class after we did that whole table of cards thing. Then helped shah with her project mi gdness the girl can seriously think so much for stuff like titles.. haHA! finished up then went back.. all happy n stuff. Its gd to be smiling honestly agn.
smile! cuz i'll smile with you.
Monday, July 11
12:00 PM
hw dreadfully dreadful.. its another monday, just another day. Hmm, watever will i do.. im very much like the animal behind my horoscope now, shielded, guarded and ready to attack.. defensive against everything, except i dun seem anything like it. Such hypocrisy towards myself. Haiz.. nvm on to better stuff. Yest was doing reports. .almost completed le ..Wee hOo.. then shahana was online.. still sad over hum tum.. watever for. i didnt know the movie held so much meaning.. lol. busy crapping away, as alwys, i cldn't understand much of wat she was saying, she couldn't understand much of wat i was saying. Thats wat happens wen we r both very lost. haHA! then she went to eat, her broher took over. hewas nice. 12 years old but i thought he was 7 or 8, cuz thats the way shah alwys talks abt him. Thn shahana was laughing at wat he had said in our conversation. both of us juz busy laughing away. Before that i went through my testimonials n stuff, it helped.. made me happy heeee.... but then we sumhow diverted on to more serious issues. and then after that it was just one big slump. how draggy. i dun like slumps. slumping is bad. hmm a 2 yr old is so much more carefree, no projects, no pressure, no expectations. Just one big roundabout in a world of imagination, food , sleep n nth more. pure bliss. but thats ok, growing up has its advantages. but now its all but a big disadvantage.
Tuesday, July 5
8:03 PM
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Monday, July 4
10:32 AM
The sky was freakingly threatening this morning.. kinda like sumthing u cld see in those discovery channels massive clouds ,strong winds.. even heard from joanne that sum branch broke off.. LoL.. anywayz.. it lasted for a good five minutes only (i Was hoping for it to subside a little cuz i was gonna go off to sch.) but then agn, a little thunderstorm nvr hurt anybody rite.. :) yup.. it cleared as fast as it came.. Then i was dressing my wound.. my sister actually bought the saline stuff for me, which i thought looked like alot. However it didn't last for much, well.. thats ok. then of course, in school.. Came to school.. surprise surprise, only joanne n urs truly. Nobody else, no jun , no jie, nobody.. lol! except sum frm the other classes.. Hmm saw this one person again tdy. Usually saw 2 of them tgthr alwys but amazingly saw him alone tdy. gng to class i suppose. And how come im alwys seeing him wen im wearing this attire. Its like, even though i see him everywer, i pass directly by him only wen im wearing like dis.. hmm ;?? haHA! ya. weird.. then im in e-learning now, juz crapping typing my life away, wen i realized that the m-commerce report had alot more stuff to add in then i thought. Turns out there are guidelines. But thankfully, only some parts are very technical, the rest are easy to crap (sumthing i can do to a certain extent ). Aishah had sent us a mail regarding sum volunteering thing. i'm particularly interested in the 9 day children day prep work. It's for the lesser fortunate kids. Malar's all for it, if shah can come as well it'll be grt. my sisters were also like. 'can i come '. But im nt sure, the details we hv are but so little. and we r supposed to confirm by this thurs. There's a test later on, a test on fri, a mock interview on wed, 2 reports by nxt wk, n a 3rd one coming along the way. oH crap. but for now though, its juz me . n my rumbling stomach. hmm.. im hungry, nd food. Food.The essence of life.The reason of death.
ps: this is the lamest entry.. Everr